It's been a while since I've done anything with Tsubame. He's been off travelling with his now departed girlfriend and I've been off on my own adventures and activities. And after reading his current blog entry, I have this sudden realization of what he is going through. Just yesterday, I saw Kozue walking towards Tsubame's house as I drove out to go to my mandarin class downtown. I thought it was weird that this was the first time I saw her in the neighborhood. She didn't look particularly happy but then, who has a huge smile on their face when they are just walking around on the sidewalk with no one to joke or talk with.
It also reminds me of this young japanese woman in my mandarin class whom I just found out will be leaving canada to go back home. She is not sad to leave. Her other close japanese friends have already left for home. So she does not feel too excited these last couple of months that she will stay here. When she returns, she will go through the same thing as Kozue. See her family and friends again and try to find a new job. She wants to get into the business of making or buying and selling movies or videos. Jobs are still hard to come by for young people new to the workforce I was told.
I downloaded episode 18 of Initial D yesterday. It was interesting that this and the previous episode took place in the Saitama prefecture. The team took a break which gave them a chance to develop the romance between one of the main drivers on the team and a young female admirer. They too separate but due to work. Racing that is. The Project D racing team travels to nearby regions in order to race against new opponents yet the main character chooses his relentless pursuit to be successful instead of allowing the young woman to come into his life.
Tsubame and Kozue chose not to show their feelings at the airport and I don't fault them for that is their choice. I on the otherhand would choose otherwise. Life is short, tell someone what you think before it maybe too late. Keeping those feelings inside just creates possible regret and unnecessary stress. What better way to lock in the emotions of someone special than to utter those words few words. But again, that is just my opinion and one could argue the opposite as being just as powerful. But again, you're only human and humans experience emotions unless you're Mr. Spock the Vulcan. Use those tear ducts! You have them so use em!
That cafe mocha really did me in this evening. Sitting there in my photography class waiting for the lecture to start, I saw a sign on the bulletin board saying that no food or drinks are allowed in the classroom. So I quickly drank the whole cup. For the next three hours, my heartbeat raced a mile a minute and towards the end, a small headache had developed. Note to self, never do that again.
When I got home, I took a shower and drained. With the water grounding me, I could feel all the energy from my head travel down to the water at my feet. This went on for a while and eventually, the pressure or headache subsided. Tomorrow is my next appointment with the specialist for my quarterly blood test. Hopefully it should continue to show good results. My head is wired right now. I can't sleep. That humungous pie is completely gone so what am I to do.
Posted by LeanPorkLei at October 13, 2005 02:45 AM | TrackBackShe knew how I felt. She left Canada with a diamond ring. That was my proof to her that I am serious about staying together with her no matter what distances of time and space we must cross :)
Posted by: tsubame at October 18, 2005 12:02 AM